got a job now. working at the holiday inn express. Job sucks, but it’s better than no job because money is better than no money.

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about that pastor of that church I used to go to, and his accusations about me being into witchcraft…. which wasn’t (me being into witchcraft) true… But part of me now, after talking with my friend Clay wonders if he might of been right in sensing spiritual issues and generational curses issues going on inside of me…. and because of that, he accused me of being into witchcraft… Not sure if I even believe in generational curses and soul ties… but I’m not ready to dismiss them.

But here’s what I know.. My grandfather, and my great grandfather on my dad’s side were both 33 degree Scotish Rite Masons… And I think their may be some issues and curses from there that need to be dealth with, and I have been dealing with… I used to think of freemasonry as a dying social organization from a different era that was made up of good people who did good works for society unable to adapt to new social conditions, but after doing a bit of reading, I’ve becoming more and more convinced that it’s a cult… and a devil-worshiping cult at that… All their weird passwords, secret codes, initiation ceremonies, and such… Ecch… And Albert Pike? Can someone say pervert!

Maybe I should go back over to that church and that pastor and clear up the air. Or call the counselor I talked to from there before I left and ask him what he knows about freemasonry. But I’m too afraid of being hurt again…. Oh well. He’s off to Minnesota now…. (I still watch their sermons online- they started putting them up shortly before I left) or bouncing back and forth. Whatever. I miss a lot of the people there, but I’m still hurting, and very bitter–partly because i feel that something had been robbed from me. I know I need to forgive. I have a friend who is a youth pastor in the twin cities… different church than were he’s going, though…

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